At exactly, 7:30am, I wake up to the sound of ym bboy laughing or shouting. It's been quite a while since he learned how to laugh louder, and wake me up whenever he wants to play with me. BBoy is 8 months old now, and it has been 8months that I am fulfilling my new role in life--wife and mother rolled into one ME. With only me and my husband to take good care of each other and the baby, no house help from anyone(Though, my mom in-law looks after bboy when I'm at work), It is only Ian and I who does the real work at home. I guess, this is the price we got when we asked for independence, freedom. This is what we got when we felt we wanted to be with each other all the time.
So, here goes our daily routine. We never anticipated this, we only thought before that we can do this, we're already grown-ups. But wait, there is still REALLY A LOT OF grown-up thingy that we need to do. It isn't simple, we are both juggling work, family life, social life. While my friends are partying and so busy building their chosen career, here I am building my family; making it sure that I have enough time spent with my baby. So here's a first-time mom, so O.C. about everything that has to do with bboy. There came a time that I don't want other people touching him, I was afraid that he'll get dirty. I was soooo paranoid. I wonly wanted myself to hold bboy, to take care of him, and so on. But, it was difficult. The road I chose to take isn't easy for a 21-year old. (emotionally speaking) There was also a time that I really lost my weight because of sleepless nights, doing all the mommy thingy when bboy was still 2mos old. When I got back to work from maternity leave, things got worse. No helper right? I struggled to keep all things organized. As for me being O.C with everything, It became harder to balance my time with the household chores and my baby. I did not achieve my dream of cooking delicious food for my family. I became impatient and short-tempered. Then, Ian and I talked about what's happening. That's when I told him about what I'm going through, and that we really need a helper because I can't do it alone everyday. Though I take vitamins, I look like i am always sleepless because of eyebags, and pale skin. It affected everything in me.
Despite of all what I'm going through, I still find it a blessing. I always thank God that I am experiencing these right now. And, don't get me wrong, I am happy now with my life, with my bboy and with my husband of course. I think, it's called LIFE CHOICES. The secret is just to be happy and be excited everyday. ♥
So, here goes our daily routine. We never anticipated this, we only thought before that we can do this, we're already grown-ups. But wait, there is still REALLY A LOT OF grown-up thingy that we need to do. It isn't simple, we are both juggling work, family life, social life. While my friends are partying and so busy building their chosen career, here I am building my family; making it sure that I have enough time spent with my baby. So here's a first-time mom, so O.C. about everything that has to do with bboy. There came a time that I don't want other people touching him, I was afraid that he'll get dirty. I was soooo paranoid. I wonly wanted myself to hold bboy, to take care of him, and so on. But, it was difficult. The road I chose to take isn't easy for a 21-year old. (emotionally speaking) There was also a time that I really lost my weight because of sleepless nights, doing all the mommy thingy when bboy was still 2mos old. When I got back to work from maternity leave, things got worse. No helper right? I struggled to keep all things organized. As for me being O.C with everything, It became harder to balance my time with the household chores and my baby. I did not achieve my dream of cooking delicious food for my family. I became impatient and short-tempered. Then, Ian and I talked about what's happening. That's when I told him about what I'm going through, and that we really need a helper because I can't do it alone everyday. Though I take vitamins, I look like i am always sleepless because of eyebags, and pale skin. It affected everything in me.
Despite of all what I'm going through, I still find it a blessing. I always thank God that I am experiencing these right now. And, don't get me wrong, I am happy now with my life, with my bboy and with my husband of course. I think, it's called LIFE CHOICES. The secret is just to be happy and be excited everyday. ♥
